Subtle but not underground, I was there, I saw the signs, I saw unfair.

It's been a while is a major understatement. In the past year I've changed several aspects of my life.
People tend to apologize when i tell them this or consider me some poor soul. I just laugh and tell them not to be, I'm not sorry. It just wasnt the life i wanted. It wasn't the life i needed. It wasn't the life i imagined for myself. Amazing how angry i actually feel writing this.

- I lost 60 pounds so far and i am on my way to losing more. i want to lose another 40 to 45 pounds..

- I bought a car and i pay insurance. I am also trying to get out of debt the honest way.

- Now i work a job and im part of a union but the pay sucks and there they don't give me alot of hours. Im waiting for usps or the police department to call me back.
How do i get into hair design?

As for my New Years Resolutions1. reach my goal weight on my diet that i started last may. 40lbs to go
2. write a blog everyday to improve my writing skills.still a goal
3. Be a better friend to people. Should be more like make new friends then be good friends to them
4. Learn wich battles are better left unfought. Getting there...
5. Don't let people walk all over me. Made strides in the right direction with this one.
6. Get organized. hahahahhahhhahahahaha

Artist: Tegan And Sara
"Are You Ten Years Ago"
If you're taken I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours I'm up and doing circles
I collapse
I might stay out longer than I left the light on for you
Then if you show, you show
If you show, you show
When I feel like this
When I get so in
To myself
I lose track of where I'm going and lose track of how to get going again
I feel myself slowing down
Feel myself turning around
Is this taken?
When I feel like this
When I get so sick of myself
Where are you going now without me
And not knowing then, that we're slowing down
You've gotta turn that around
And tell me that I'm taken,
Tell me if I'm yours
You collapse
The pressure of this life is so
You can't be held accountable
If you go, you go
If you go, you go
When you act like this
When you get so sick, of yourself
The whole world falls away and since
I feel
Like I have only missed the feeling that I'm here again
The feeling that I'm clear again
I'm not taken
When you act like this
When you get so in
To yourself I lose sight of common goals
And letting go so I can be all alone
Feel myself, going slow
Feel myself, letting go
Not taken,
Not feeling like I'm yours
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I collapse
This life looks like a sentence, though
A constant game of falling short
If you know, you know
If you know, you know
When I feel like this
When I'm just so sick of feeling less than perfect
Is it right for me I never fight to see if coming clean
Would get to me I feel myself, holding back
I feel the pressure, it's finally back
I'm taken
When you feel like this
When you saw it call come crashing down
Subtle but not underground
I was there
I saw the signs, I saw unfair
And so I write to you
Through other means
I let myself finally feel taken
Like I was yours
If you're taken I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I collapse I collapse I collapse